Forever nowhere

I wake up in the morning, wait to get into the bus so I can peacefully read some book. I enter the office and I wait to finish my morning ritual calls or mails. Then I sit there waiting for my lunch time, then for the clock to hit 5 so that I can again go back into my hiding place which is the bus. I reach home and wait for 9 pm so that I can have my dinner then I wait to go to bed. When I cant sleep and stay awake I think of if only I get to sleep it will soon be morning and the night will be over. So here I am repeating the above steps on every day of my life religiously. So what do you see missing in this routine, its obviously a sense of purpose. Its as if someone has taken away the thing that matters the most to me. I am not talking here about a single purpose like many ppl have, to achieve or to do something diff or something great. Its the simple purpose in life thats missing, the purpose of reaching home with a plan to cook a meal or waking up to think that I can probably do something I did yesterday a lil better today or plan to keep myself occupied on a weekend or atleast dream about something which I know I cant get but atleast I was dreaming. No more there is an urge to own a luxury car nor to go around the world. As I said before the most precious thing is missing in life. I used to think this was a cool life but honestly this is as good as having no existence. If I look back there were many a times when I had a sense of achievement, but if it was never enough, I just want that one moment which will always remain without giving me the feeling of void.
Tonight the dream is mine
tomorrow I wanna be awake with a hope of fulfilling it
But there is lil or no desire to wake up
Just in case the hope was all false